Reviewer: Bigdawg K Signed
Date: March 04 2019
Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1 - Reunion
I am a bit worried about Sam and Billy being at large, any normal sized person could take Sam. I would hate to be Billy if he did hurt or kill Sam and Julie finds out. All that angunish would become rage with a focus, someone other then herself had hurt Sam, I doubt Billy would enjoy or even survive that, not sure Julie would survive the gulit afterward. She would likely see it as yet another sin she inflicted on her Love, after avenging him, she would berate herself for letting him come to harm.
Speaking of Julie, it's becoming ever more clear she has always needed Sam. She is the poster child of 'Love makes you crazy' and 'Love makes you evil' (both from Tv Tropes). She has been growing up (at times very slowly), her physical growth spurt didn't help matters, nor did Sam's enabling of her. Though I doubt Julie of chapter one or fifty would have the moral courage she has now.
Don't particulary like the other girls trying to crowd Julie out of Sam's life. Understand they believe they are protecting him, and that there are times when you have to retreat or even give up. Even if Sam has reached that point Julie still needs him as a fellow human being. His nature is to help and if something happened to her you know he would feel awful. They should let Sam be Sam and if they can fix things they should be happy for him. The once bitten twice shy rule doesn't completely cover this, Julie wasn't gloating over what she had done, she was geniuely remorseful and from Jill and others she is devestated by what she did. It doesn't excuse it, but as mentioned before she did have a time when 'Love made her Crazy and Evil' don't think that applies any more to her.
In the end Julie needs Sam in her life (at least a friend) if she is to be happy. He has been her anchor, her rock, her means of support. She took ihim for granted and got jealous a fair bit. she also allowed other to mock him and took it out on him instead of them (Sunflower girls),but I hope that with her confession came an ephiny and that she know her emotional and mental growth are much more important then her physical growth.
Without Sam, what does she do, she won't be satified with the Sunflower Girls, will she work things out with Jill and do her utmost to treat those like she infected? Will she become so desponent that she seeks out the same disease she gave Sam so she can return to the way things were in forlon hope for Sam? Will her own growth perhaps provide a treatment or cure for Sam? If so, and if he's cured would she try to get back together at that point or will her guilt stop her? After her realiztion can she allow herself to be happy again?
I believe Julie will from here on out attempt to support and help Sam. She will do it covertly, quietly and in sercert. I think she has reached the point that she feels she no longer deserves him, or anything good in her life. I think Sam being Sam will do the same for Julie, he will help where he can, support as he can, and wish her the best if they don't heal.
I think they should meet and let time and healing take them where they can go. If it's friends that might be good enough, but Julie never had to tell the truth, one day, could of become one week, a month a year, maybe on his death bed (or hers). She knew the pain it would cause both of them, but Sam deserved the truth.
Thank you for a great chapter, still want healing beteewn Sam and Julie...
Author's Response: Hi Bigdawg, how's it going? Thanks again. You write your comments almost as long as I write my chapters. :)
With Billy out and about nobody's safe. I hope he stays hidden and we don't see him again. Or better yet, he gets caught and thrown back in jail.
I'm kind of wondering what Julie is doing with herself. Perhaps she doesn't need Sam. Maybe the Sunflower girls will keep her attention and be her new muse. Maybe Sam doesn't need Julie. He has plenty of girls around to look after his needs, doesn't he? I'm not so sure the other girls are trying to crowd Julie out of Sam's life, except for Zoe. It seems the little spitfire wants Sam to herself, or at least away from Julie. We'll see what happens.
One thing is for sure at this point: Julie seems to be drifting away from Sam, but Sam can't get Julie totally out of his mind. What's it going to take? Will he finally forget about her, will she come back to him, or will something else bring them together or apart? I know everyone wants to see Julie and Sam back together. But sometimes, shit happens.
Thanks for the comments and thoughts.