Reviewer: It Was Me Signed [Report This]
Date: February 20 2024 6:02 PM Title: Chapter 8: Desire

Okay, so I wasn't completely wrong.

Trish did make the first move, and her increased confidence helped her do it. I think her using the confidence building exercise "against" Thomas was a really nice touch. Not only did that produce a "full-circle" moment with her figuring out for herself how to use what Thomas has been teaching her this whole time, but if you look at the times that she has used it up until now (with Thomas reminding her each previous time), it also shows that she was still nervous and unsure of herself in that moment.

Every time Trish hasn't been sure how to react to something, she has looked to Thomas, and he was signaled to her to keep her chin up and shoulders out, giving her the confidence she needed to get through those awkward situations. So here we see her knowing what she wants and being bold enough to pursue it, but still having doubts. Those doubts are understandable, given her philosophy on relationships (that it's better if the guy is taller), not to mention the concerns that come with having sex with your therapist and having sex with a friend's boyfriend.

But I really like that, while her confidence has grown exponentially throughout the story, she hasn't morphed into a super assertive type. A 180 like that just wouldn't feel natural, and you avoiding that trap shouldn't surprise me, as your handling of her character as she goes through this journey has been masterful.

And, of course, the fact that she had to wait for Thomas to initiate after that first move not only feeds into this, but it also makes both characters feel equally invested in the decision, too. That's important, as there's a lot involved in that decision, including some potentially serious consequences down the road. It's good that they jumped into this together, instead of Trish simply being the aggressor.

I also understand Trish's sense of urgency. While I've been focusing on other things in my reviews, I've also had the thought that she was "on the clock" if she wanted to have any semblance of normal sex with Thomas, and it was great to see her acknowledge that now. Not only does she want to experience that one more time before it's too late, but the man she loves is literally sitting in her bed with her. And then there's that movie that kind of mirrors her situation to motivate her further. There's no way she couldn't make a move!

I absolutely love the sex scenes in this chapter. They were a realistic blend of hot and awkward, which fits the situation perfectly. Trish has never had sex at that size, and Thomas has obviously never fucked someone twice his size before. So it only makes sense that they would have some issues. The part where Trish is trying so hard to push him deeper into her only for him to not be enough to fill her conveyed the size difference swimmingly, and the fact that he simply resorted to using his arm instead of feeling emasculated or inadequate is exactly what I would expect from him. If anything, being too small to satisfy her with his cock alone probably just made him harder, which is a mentality that's pretty much required for any partner Trish will ever have from this point forward. So in an odd way, that bit of awkwardness shows why they go together so well.

The same could be said for the shower scene. I like how you called attention to how difficult it was for Trish to stay so low for that blow job. And that growing confidence of hers allowed her to get past the concern of emasculating Thomas, rightfully realizing that her size hasn't bothered him up to that point, and lifting him up to finish him off. It was also sweet that, even though it's pointed out that Thomas's dick in her mouth didn't exactly fill her mouth, she was still felt so satisfied just by making him feel good.

Backtracking just a bit, I think the way Trish voluntarily let Thomas just move her body around was incredibly hot. There's just something about a woman who has the power to take control not doing so (at least not right away) that's so enthralling. And the thing with him making her keep her arms up and pulling her over with her shirt made it feel as though he was playing with a 12-foot-tall living doll! Not only that, but this made the following part (where Trish's passion takes control) feel so much more intense.

And I do think that Trish is well on the path to figuring out Thomas's little fetish. That he isn't emasculated when she takes control or, again, has to use his arm to please her, as well as the fact that wasn't scared or angry that she had actually hurt him during sex hint at it but likely aren't enough on their own to tip her off. The way he blew his load immediately after being manhandled by her in the shower is something she'll probably look back on the next time something like that happens though. Right now, she knows that he's not intimidated or emasculated by her size at all, but another moment or two like that and I think she'll piece together pretty quickly that he's actually into it.

It's sad that Trish doesn't understand why Thomas feels so guilty about this. She probably thinks he's thinking about Melanie or crossing that ethical barrier between therapist and patient when he smiles at her that way. And while I'm sure those things are either on his mind or will be shortly after he leaves, I think what's making him feel so guilty is that he believes he let Trish down. Up until now, he's been able to push his lust and growing personal feelings for her aside, remaining the professional that he thinks she needs him to be to get her through this. He thinks it was selfish for him to cave into his desires, and he probably believes that Trish will be worse off for it in the long run. So while she thinks he's simply regretting this decision (deterring her from sharing her true feelings at the end of the chapter), it's really his love and compassion for her that's making him feel this way.

In other words, even when you finally give us what we want, you still find a way to make it tantalizing at the same time. That's a great trait for a slow burn story, and I'm incredibly eager to see where things go from here (especially with so much story left).

And lastly, I decided to put the poor Melanie section of this review in the back this week. The three of them hanging out together both builds on her relationship with both of them and highlights how much more compatible Thomas is with Trish than he is with her. And I thought it was really sweet of her to let Thomas off the hook and basically give him her blessing to stay with Trish, despite feeling like the third wheel and obviously wanting something from him. Again, we don't see a ton of Melanie each chapter, but what we do get is someone who's insanely likable and someone who I'm going to feel really bad for once Trish and Thomas's (likely) ongoing affair is found out.

Author's Response:

Now the question is, how does she find out, and what will her reaction be?