Krees let Lee-John have the limelight, even though Krees also knew,
That when Lee-John had restored him, hed been close to breaking through
On his own. His time with Roslannes mind games once had been his classes
For exposing what Cabilo did; when dreams were born from farces.
When they had some time alone, he said to Jenyfer, My dear,
There are things Id like to tell you, which are only for your ear.
I was close to shrugging off the dream waves. Back when we were working
Out our trust concerns, I always knew Cabilo had been lurking.
Hed corrupted Roslanne, though she didnt need his help to bust
That relationship. She was the one whod left me slow to trust
Even someone sweet and radiant like you. She tried regaining
My affections once, while you were out. I didnt need restraining.
Though I sent her far away, no more partaking of her game,
With my heart forever fixed on you, I still retained the shame,
That Id dated your arch enemy (or Braisydes worst), then worried
That my courtship with his widow was perhaps a little hurried.
Now Ive learned he was responsible for Braisydes death, as well,
As the whole damn worlds hypnosis. Let his Dragons go to hell.
All weve done is hoist their brains to burn in their own self-made fire.
Do you think Im really good for you? Ive been both worlds pariah.
Krees was crying now. She didnt mind. She cuddled him quite close.
I just want to see you reach the point, where you feel more morose.
You have suffered as a private witness of Cabilos doing.
Such recriminations of yourself have no worth in pursuing.
You were not involved in Braisydes death. You never came to plan
What began with my pursuit of you. Im touched you turned Roslanne
Out, in spite of how you must have deeply loved her when you dated.
You have chosen me. Theres nothing there which need be expiated.
Im in love with you completely as I was with Braisyde while
He was living. Now if anything, you chose to just revile
Someone who had been the follower of my late husbands slayer
Back before you knew Cabilo had become the major player.
But if I had talked to Ambloome, long ago, with what I knew,
We just might have kept an eye on what was happening in Peru.
Then we could have stopped the Dragons in advance, protecting Braisyde.
Since I sat on that, I dont deserve you as my latter day bride.
Darling you could not have known what would have happened. Thats absurd.
But Id like to think that somewhere in your worries, I just heard
Your first mention that youre thinking (in the future) of proposing.
Thats a door to dreams Id open, with no thoughts of ever closing.
Youre so gracious, darling. You and Braisyde clearly both were made
For each other. Yet you make me feel that such design was played
Out in history twice. Im just as sure that we were both created
For each other too. I will propose, when both of us have waited.
Author's Chapter Notes:
Krees tells Jenyfer all that he withheld about Roslanne and Cabilo.