Then those 18 months went by, since Id considered slowly hitting
On yourself. Then I applied and got the job of babysitting.
You turned out to be the client, with a husband and a child.
I was glad Id kept my feelings in, or Id have been reviled.
But you didnt even recognize the man of this confession.
I would not have sought your heart; but how could there be no impression
In your memory, when you hired me, so at least back then youd know
I was someone whod been there before and briefly said Hello?
You would understand if youd been married, Jenyfer responded,
Braisyde dreamt of my existence long before we met and bonded.
I had dreamt him too. Our love ran deep and occupied my thoughts
All the time. I didnt even notice any decent sorts.
When he died, and you kept minding her, in time I saw a sequel
To my first love. Now the feelings that I have for you are equal
To the ones I had for Braisyde. You can rest assured by me.
Now I understand, said Krees, That was the way the past should be.
You were brave, the way you followed me and sword fought like a Roman,
Saving Maura from the castle guard, while I was clenching Bomen.
I now only want to be with you, but Ive a question too,
Answered Jenyfer, pertaining to the time I hired you.
I now know that you remembered me, when sitters work was needed.
Was the romance we have now perhaps (within your heart) preceded
By affections you developed, while you worked in my employ?
Id be flattered, not offended, in that case, you darling boy.
Yes I was in love with you back then, but never could take action,
Since I didnt want the guilt of one who would commit infraction
Of your marriage. So I kept it in and hoped that I would meet
Someone just as lovely as yourself, whod make my heart complete.
Youre adorable, she said, But curiositys demanding:
Did your feelings start much earlier, that day that we were standing
On my doorstep, when you came, collecting food in bags and tins.
I was very keen on you, he said, But wouldnt risk the sins.
I was representing (badge and all) the charity collection.
If Id been direct, pursuing you, and made a bad reflection
On the team, it would have let them down. And somehow something told
Me that you already had someone youd vowed to have and hold.
How could you have had that instinct? questioned Jenyfer, Its guessing.
Not at all, said Krees, Youre beautiful and sweet, with every blessing;
And your eyes betrayed the happiness of someone whod been wed.
So I only would have hurt myself with anything I said.
You can have me now, said Jenyfer, My self suppressed admirer.
Every lady should be fortunate with someone to desire her
For as long, and just as much as you have done, behind the scene.
You did nothing. Then the time was right. Your conscience can be clean.
Author's Chapter Notes:
Krees and Jenyfer delve deeply into their past.