[Report This]Date: January 08 2019 2:40 PM Title: Chapter 81 - Humility
Ow what were you thinking back then Julie... just because he broke up didn't mean you had to break him.
One of the things that is becoming increasingly clear is that Julie does love Sam, a lot, perhaps too much, going Yandere is never a good sign and what she did all those years ago was horrible.
So, why admit it, she wasn't monolouging like a super-villian, she was in my view a scared girl who HAD to let everyone know what she had done, she wasn't proud, she was scared and ashamed. She could of went through life never telling them, but she did and on an instinctual level at least she knows it will cause her pain, more than any thing else she has done. She could of kept Sam and her friends, ignored her conscience and let things be, why didn't she? My guess is she knew if it ever did come out it would be just as destructive if not more and that she owned it to Sam and the others to admit what she had done.
It is an insanely brave thing espeacilly since in doing so almost certianly loses Sam and her friends for the forseeable future if not forever, at least this one time she found the moral courage to do the right thing regardless of the cost to her which may rebound to her.
Sam, solves problems and thinks about things, once the intial OH MY GOD LOOK WHAT SHE DID TO YOU!!!! phase ends he's going to piece it together he knows she could of left the blame on Jill, that if Jill came forward with the turth she could use the family dynaytic to muddy the waters, Sam may of doubt but no proof and she would have Sam. He will likely come to the simple conclusion that she could lie no more, that if she cared for them she had to let them know what she had done.
A confession like this only hurts Julie, her friends and co-workers are going to leak over time, it's going to get to her bosses and other friends, unless you are the mafia do you really want to associate with some one who did what she did and that would only be for bussiness, you could really be a friend to someone like if you were in the mob they would come for you at some point in time. Are you going to date some one her size, with her anatomy after what she did to her last boyfriend you know the one who did everything for her, if you are a sunflower girl how do you know if you slight her. Even if she never does it again, and works against anyone who would it will be out there. So she's cut herself off from friends and LOVE perhaps forever cause they deserved to know the truth.
My hope is over time (and the event having taken place years ago), Julie uses the moral courage it took to better herself and those around her, that Sam a couple others stay in contact and time healing all wounds they reconcile at least as friends, possibly as a couple. Thank you and hope life is treating you better.
Author's Response:
Indeed, what was Julie thinking back then? Maybe it was along the lines of young school girl just wanting revenge for the one who hurt her. Did she even know what she was getting Sam into?
I'm glad it's clear to you that Julie does love Sam. This is written from Sam's perspective, but it's about both of them. I think Julie is growing up. Hearing how Sam gets no respect from anyone and how he hates arrogance has made her think about what her life was like before. I think the constant denial that what she did was ok was eating at her inside and she couldn't lie about anymore.
Their problems aren't over yet, even if they can get through this. There's Jill. Poor Jill has kept this secret for her sister ever since Sam came back. She never cared much for Sam before she got to know him, but now that she does, it hurt her a lot to keep this secret, but hey, it is her sister so she had to do it. Do you think that now that Julie has told Sam the big secret and Jill doesn't have to live the lie with her that things between the sisters will be better? Will that help Julie and Sam's relationship?
And how will Gail's situation act on these things, if it does have any impact? What do you think of all this.
As always, thanks for the feedback.
I've been a little busy with both family and work but I'm still committed to this. I can' t promise but I'll try to get one chapter a week, at least.
Cheers, everyone.
[Report This]Date: January 07 2019 8:56 PM Title: Chapter 81 - Humility
You were right that chapter was painful, Julie is in love with Sam, very much so, but love isn't always good, she for breaking up with him nuked his life (though she likely wanted to pick up the pieces). It is horrible, but she found the courage to own up to it. She could of never said a word, she could of brazened it out if Jill told Sam, saying you know how my sister hates me and would say anything against me, no she owned the whole thing. Even if things get repaired it's going to hurt her for the rest of her life, doing that much damage to the love of her life.
It maybe a while if ever that Sam and Julie have a relationship, that she forced herself and was honest is as good a start as she can have, but she's going to have become more giving and less arrogent, she can do both, from the chapters past and this one the enjoyment factor of her size is deminishing, oh she likes when she played with Sam, but from the undertones it seems like it's an increasing hassle for her.
Hope both start and stay on the winding road back to the other...
Author's Response:
This last chapter (81) was painful, wasn't it? Can anyone endure that much pain? Let's hope this is the last of it and maybe they can repair their relationship, or not.
Thanks again for the comments. I meant to have the next chapter up by now but got busy with work. Oh weil, sometimes life gets in the way of what we really want to do.
[Report This]Date: January 07 2019 8:47 PM Title: Chapter 81 - Humility
Ouch poor Sam, Julie is desperately in love with you and that time it made her EVIL. Hoping with time and effort they can start to rebuild, as Julie's love is not likely to deminish or change, and Sam is smart and wants to fix things Julie has a lot of potential and maybe too much love for him, he just needs to guide it and repair things as they can, at this point you have to say the relationship is at it's nadir, if Julie can stay as brave and honest it wil hurt but I think it can be salvaged their relationship.
As the author says it's a widing road, hope these can meet and walk again hand in hand.
Thank you.
Author's Response:
That's the whole thing right there, isn't it? Can they get back together and make it work? Do they really love each other? Stay tuned.
Thanks for the coments Last_one.